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I will now be posting new blogs to
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| Blah Blah Blah |
[14 Nov 2006|11:06pm] |
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The Album Leaf - In a Safe Place |
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I really need to find something productive and entertaining to do on these days where I have nothing to do. Today, I watched three movies; Pretty Persuasion, Doogal, and The DaVinci Code. All were quite good, save Doogal, which was two steps down from most computer animated movies. It seemed to try too hard to be entertaining for adults. But let's give the writers an A for effort, it was cute.
This weather, I think, is to blame for my laziness and lack of motivation. Knowing that I have two days of rain behind me, and two more to look forward to, is a bit discouraging. Actually, maybe it's not the rain. Maybe It's just the indefinite weather that bothers me. I feel like the seasons cannot commit, and coming from someone who lacks commitment, himself, I tend to lose a little faith the way I think the world operates. Could it just be the world keeping me in check? Sure. Asshole.
The though of this weekend excites me, nevertheless. A hope of sunny weather, some much-needed sobriety, friends, a hockey game, maybe some cookies, maybe some Star Wars. All of which sound very appealing, although i think the active ingredient in this whole concoction is friends. What I wouldn't give right now for a three-hour trip to the Chester Diner to talk about life and love and society and families and music over several cups of coffee and a few cigarettes. I miss George kicking us out when he wanted to close. I also miss a lot of the people I used to have these conversations with.
I think that's all for now. I might be back later with some fun social commentary.
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[13 Nov 2006|03:26pm] |
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Hail Socail |
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I forgot this thing was even here. I don't even know where to begin. Actually, yes I do. Let's start with the composition of this journal. Every entry had some sort of significance and meaning, but I want to delete all of the old entries and start fresh. Not that I want to discount the things that have happened in my past, but because of the gap between the last entry and this, it is not a continuous stream of thought. Therefor, the old entries should be archived. Too bad the LJ doesn't offer an archive feature.
Ok, so life? Life is good. Yea... I mean, there are some things that could improve. This semester, my fifth, has been excellent so far. I feel like I've made some of the most meaningful friendships in the past two-and-a-half months. The only things I miss are the little pieces that make up a romantic relationship... Being able to spoil someone, having someone to cuddle up to a movie with, someone to talk to about things I don't want to talk to anyone else about, someone to threaten me to do well in school, someone to motivate me to follow your dreams even though she and I both know my dreams are farfetched and contrived.
Speaking of dreams and life (they do go hand in hand), I think I've finally decided what I'm going to major in. Secondary Ed with a Math concentration. Yes, sooner or later I will be Mr. O'Connor (unless I can get away with letting my high school stuents call me Sean... I never want to be a Mr.) the math teacher. Being a teacher will allow me plenty of time to follow those farfetched dreams I previously mentioned. And by those, I mean making music, playing in bands, and hopefully starting my own recording company and / or record store. Sounds pretty rock and roll, huh? For the moment, I agree.
I think that's enough for now. It's rainy and I fear if I keep going I won't stop. Rainy weather makes my mind move too quickly. Hopefully I'll remember this is here and make semi-regular entries.
Listen to Hail Social.
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| who's fucking who? |
[03 Feb 2005|12:48am] |
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tonight i'm all sorts of bleh... im sure it has to do with the bottle of wine i drank, but it's just supressed things coming out. im lonely, which is something i'll hopefully be over in a week or so, but i just keep thinking that i need someone special in my life... which i do, but i can usually also do fine on my own. maybe it's just discouraging seeing so many people here with significant others... i read a text message i got at 1:30 am in august that i saved... i says nothing but 'i love you', and it sent me back to think of how the simplest and littlest things can make someone so incredibly happy. those times are long over, i'm lucky if i can get i "hi" but that's how the cookie crumbles. i guess i just need to wait to meet the right person here, or hope that someone hunts me out, but that is highly unlikely. oh well. i'm gonna go watch some tv and hit the sack.
night.
sean
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| no we can't dance together, no we can't talk at all |
[30 Jan 2005|09:38pm] |
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steely dan - aja |
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so i haven't really had all too much time to be writing here, but it was brought to my attention that this thing needed some updating. so i will do that. i've been telling myself i'm gonna do homework all weekend, and i've done nothing. instead i did many fuuuuun things :)... and continue to sculpt with sticky tack. rowan is like three hundred steps up from umbc. i've been here for two weeks today and i feel like i've always been here. flynn and especially egil were so good to me when i got here... egil brought me right in and introduced me to all of his friends who have been excellent. i've also developed a tiiiiny liking for ddr. sorry.
i've been working on my dvd collection a lot lately... and by working on, i mean burning just about every dvd i come across. there are a crapload of movies i need to watch. hm hm hm, what else is going on..............
oh, right. steely dan could be one of the best things that everr happened to music... for serious.
ok, enough of this, i really need to do work.
*
ill learn to work the saxaphone
ah, i'll play just what i feel
drink scotch whiskey all night long
and die behind the wheel
they got a name for the winners in the world
i want a name when i lose
the call alambama the crimson tide
call me deacon blues
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ciao
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| woo hoo, woo hoo hoo |
[21 Jan 2005|02:27am] |
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ok, first thursday here at rowan, and i'm enjoying myself. egil and flynn have been excellent, introducing me to people and really making me feel welcome here. it's so much of a better thing than umbc. i liked my friends at umbc, and classes, but nothing really else. the whole atmosphere here is different. tonight we watched a movie and drank some beer and watched some kids play DDR which was halarious. it's different when it's not a clique-y asian thing. haha.
i miss home. i decided i'd probably bring it everywhere if i could. the comfort and safety of home is something that can never be replaced. don't forget it.
*oh the truths we put in the journal while we're drunk... although i mean it, it's nothing anyone needs to see.*
im trying to get back into writing again. hopefully i'll have something soon. keep your fingers crossed :)
lovesean
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[17 Jan 2005|10:42am] |
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so i'm finally here at rowan. i dunno, it seems ok for now, but everything minus the campus and the kids are a step down from umbc. my room is ultra tiny, i share a bathroom with like 10 kids, and yea. i'm trying to fend off that lonely feeling i let get the best of my for the first month or so of last semester. i mean, i suppose it's cool because flynn and robin and egil and megan are here, but i need to feel like i belong here. i dunno, i guess i'll giive it a little bit and see how it works out. today i'm going to fnd my way around campus, stop by the radio station, try and meet some people around here... i dunno.
aaaahhhh, the normal frustrations are there. and so is life...
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| she says, "you look like a guy i used to know." |
[16 Jan 2005|02:09am] |
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minus the bear - they make beer commercials like this |
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so what the fuck. tomorrow (or later today) i arrive at rowan and begin me new college. im excited.
this weekend was my last home, obviously, and it was excellent. last night we watched a movie and hung out at colleen's house. they are excellent people. i'll miss them, hope they'll come visit occasionally. tonight was pretty much guys night. it started off well, and was a good time minus
TERKO GETTING MOUNTAN DEW CODE RED ON MY NEW JACKET
TERKO PUKING ON MY NEW JACKET
TERKO LAUGHING A LOT ABOUT IT
TERKO BEING ALIVE (i should have murdered him)
otherwise, it was good. we hung out, played some basketball.... yes, basketball. HAHAHA.
then we went to arabica and ordered two hookas, yet magically ended up with 3 hookas and 5 drinks. amazing! it was delicious.
ok, i'm out for now.... time to sleep.
love
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| more ups and downs |
[11 Jan 2005|09:21pm] |
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the good life - album of the year |
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today sucked, bottom line. i don't want to get into it, but basically, i have no classes for next semester and i dont know what the fuck im supposed to do. fuck college.
on a better note, jo put up an away message, "i love sean o'connor." and i smiled a smile i haven't smiled in some time. thanks :)
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| balls |
[10 Jan 2005|12:02am] |
im ready to start again, i guess. i think i just got bored here. things are going my way, and not going my way at all. aye. who the fuck knows? i wonder if sometime i could get things working how i'd like then... meh
later
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| i'm wishin we fall into the world |
[08 Jan 2005|01:48am] |
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im feeling a little bit better. the sun came out today. i went to matt's and hung out with him, then went to the mall with shagmaster drunk, matt, missy, and colleen. it was a good time. i spent like $10 and got a sweater thing, a scarf, a shirt, naopleon dynamite, 15 dvd-r spindle, and pinback's summer in abaddon. gotta love reutrns and gift cards :-P. after that, i came home for some munch, and headed back to colleen's with the gang for eternal sunshine and napoleon. it was much fun. good times, good folk, good feelings. i like these people. oh my muffler fell off my car today. fuck that thing. im so sick of putting my time and money into it... :-/ not that i have any money. haha. everyone's starting to go back to school... i'm ready to go. i just need classes and somewhere to live... haha. i think i'm gonna go to bed now... early, i know, but the sleep will be delightful. haha.
don't get me wrong. i'm still feeling not right. alright.
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| aren't you feelin real dirty sittin in the parking lot? |
[06 Jan 2005|01:09pm] |
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i'm afraid my life is meaningless. what at all have i done that is going to make a difference or be remembered after i die? i'm 18, almost at the most productive part of my life, and i have no idea what i can do. i know what i want to do: make/record/market music, write/produce/direct/make movies, become involved in the arts. i'm not good enough at any of it, and you have to be cream of the crop to make a penny doing it. so what's left for me? a job i'll never be content with that will hopefully allow me to pursue a passion in my free time? excellent. i think college is a waste and i should take time off and explore the world and what it has to offer. i know nothing.
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| all i ever learned from love is how to shoot somebody who out-drew ya |
[05 Jan 2005|02:22pm] |
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i slept till 1:30 today, totally unintentionally, but it felt great. got up, ate a little salad for lunch, popped on some jeff buckley, and now i'm getting ready to take a shower and head to dylan's for a soccer match. sounds ok to me, eh?
i think i decided i'm ready to start school again. i think it's going to be much better this time around. i dunno, i'm jumping out of my skin. nothing does it for me anymore. i need to start coming up with things that make me happy again. i mean, sure there are things that'll do it for a short amount of time... but i used to be so content with everything. i'm quite sure i'll get there again, i just nee to expedite the process.
enough.
man jeff buckley has the greatest voice ever.
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| gold teeth and a curse for this town were all in my mouth |
[05 Jan 2005|03:16am] |
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such a terrible day, but such good times.
- no sleep.
+ dvd pirating.
- fighting.
+ picking up garden state.
- taking out the garbage.
+ pizza.
+ donovan's.
- awkwardness.
+ soccer.
+ capture the flag.
+ guys in the hot tub.
- goodbyes.
- pulled over for speeding.
+ not getting a ticket.
- stepping in goddamn cat puke.
+ talking with jo.
+ garden state with director / actress commentary.
now, i think i'm going to eat some cookies and milk, and sleep.
thank you to everyone who contributed to my day in any way what-so-ever, especially the cop who didn't give me a ticket. it's refreshing to know that humans still live on this planet.
mamasita.
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| nothing unusual, nothing strange |
[03 Jan 2005|12:33pm] |
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i was reading through some friend's friend's entries on this here public posting journal (while eating a bowl of cereal), on this most boring of monday mornings, and let me tell you... i am ready to regurgitate the whole fucking bowl. why do people post the most explicit things on here, i mean, have you absolutely no respect for your own privacy. a) who gives a flying fuck, b) who are you to impose such things upon other's minds. i know i'm just as guilty for reading, but seriously now, have some restraint.
tonight is bgso #??? but it is going to be fuccccking awesome. a solid night of craziness minus all the shit that is mistaken for fun (alcohol, drugs, girls, etc.)
terribly sorry, but i've been on this ridiculous damien rice kick for the past month or so, and i dont seem to be listening to much else.
albums on rotation:
damien rice - o
damien rice - b-sides
explosions in the sky - the earth is not a cold, dead place
fugees - the score
and sadly enough, that's the extent of it.
ciao
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| this is love, this is porn |
[02 Jan 2005|12:06am] |
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so i have big plans for this entry. i could imagine taking up pages and pages because i have so much on my mind. that will not happen. i'm sure i'll be able to articulate the jist, but anything beyond that will be shit.
i'm totally enjoying my time at home, it seems that all of my friendships with the guys have gotten much tighter. the girls haven't really changed. it just seems that everything is just guy bonding. that is excellent. as the days roll past though, i can't help but feel sad for one reason or another. i'm not entirely sure why. i'm doing nothing productive, actually, i think everything i've been doing is counterproductive. i need a job, but how can i get a job for two weeks? that seems like a shit thing to do to an employer. on top of being a complete waste, i keep realizing that the things that could usually make someone happy or feel good do shit for me anymore. all of the indulgent things i should be enjoying as a kid do nothing. i keep thinking that i need something beyond all of this. something more defining and meaningful. it's actually quite pathetic. i am obviously in control of every aspect of this, but i'll get caught up time and time again in the usual bullshit and look back on it and contemplate what it meant. i think life is just over rated. at least this part of it. everyone says that college are the best years of your life. fuck that. college is shit. college is classes, meaningless friendships, alcohol and drugs, and absolutely nothing to look forward to aside tying myself down to a fucking job for the rest of my life. so what's next?
so i guess this leaves me lost.
maybe college isn't for me. maybe the conventional life isn't for me. maybe i'll figure out what it is i'm looking for.
sweet dreams
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merry christmas :-)
i wish the best to everyone, enjoy the day and the wonderful company.
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| diggity dance |
[23 Dec 2004|01:54am] |
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i don't really have too much to write. i can't wait for christmas. i'm having awesome times with my friends. everything seems to be going well.
i do notice that there is more i want to say, but a public journal isn't really the place for it. so those things i will keep to myself, or write on paper where no one else can see it. yea, i'm a bitch like that.
joanna is a rub whore.
oh yea... i saw danielle tonight. strange stuff. she's getting married next year. these kids and getting married so young. doesn't anyone enjoy dating anymore? haha. oh well... it was nice to see her. katie and kira were there too, but seemingly less excited to see me. blast from the past like whoa. let it roll.
and i think that's about it for the evening. i have a lot to do tomorrow, including getting a haircut, getting a little more shopping done, go to see closer again, and hopefully spend some quality time with chris.
There is a world waiting for us to live in it
(Viva Love) Sing everything you've ever loved
For everything that you will one day love
Long live the sound of desperation
Long live the stereo of destruction
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| guess what? well i'm apparently not too young (too young to die) |
[21 Dec 2004|01:33am] |
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so i'm hangin out up here with some cookies and milk, watchin who's the boss, and relaxing. It feels soooo good to just lay down. i think i might be sick, like mono or something. my muscles are all achey, and i'm sleepy. eh, i guess we'll find out!
today was super sweet. i woke up, went to the doc, came home and cleaned, then went out and just got home. stinks and i met up with colleen, emily, and missy at the school, then went to the motown diner and then walmart. it was cool. i highly enjoy their company. :)
then it was off to cookie baking. everyone, minus a couple, was there. it was amazing. charlie and i made dirty cookies and then guthrie ate them. terko kissed me on the cheek. jo, robinson, chris, and i watched the rainbow clip. shags and stinks kept tackling me on the couch. matt wouldn't stop hitting me. liz tried to tell leah and i racist jokes and failed terribly. guth, dan, and matt talked a lot of ultimate. weebs, stinks, and someone went to steal a stop sign. oh it was grand. i love these dudes.
wowzer... i am exhausted. i'm gonna watch my who's the boss and sleep.
sweet dreams
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